Thursday, October 25, 2018

Self doubt and a personal story

Why is it so hard for us to see how amazing we are right now? I hear it all the time " I really want to get a boudoir session, just as soon as I lose a few pounds." Or " I think your work is Elegant and beautiful but I'm just not sexy enough to pull it off"

LADIES, you are beautiful RIGHT NOW. You are Sexy because God made you a woman and all women are sexy. 
I understand it can be out of your comfort zone but hey, that is why I am here to guide you. I walk you through poses by demonstrating myself. I don't just tell you to " be sexy". 
As a woman myself, I understand all of these self-doubts. I have faced them many many many times. That is the number one reason I have made it my purpose to help guide other women into the world of self-confidence, self-love, and bringing out their own inner goddess!

Just to show you an example of my own awkwardness. I'm sharing with you a photograph of myself when I was around 19 or 20 years old. I had just begun doing a little soul searching myself and decided putting myself out there was the best thing I could do.  I decided to JUMP RIGHT IN so I signed up for modeling school.

Now at this point I was about to enter into the Great Legs of Summer contest put on by WQSB country radio in Albertville Alabama. I had never done anything like this before but I was looking for a way to build myself up. I may be smiling in the picture but I was pretty broken down.


My boyfriend ( first love)  at the time was not great for my self-esteem. He was a chronic cheater and I somehow thought that was my fault for not being pretty enough. ( oh my how  things have changed. It set me on my path and in a way I am grateful )
A few of my " friends" at the time also said hurtful things about me for practicing for the contest. Trying to shame me for being comfortable in my own skin.
 Only I wasn't really comfortable at all, I was trying to  " fake it till you make it".

My talented aunt helped be bring to life the bikini we designed to best showcase my body. I had my song picked out and practiced for a week or so but when it was showtime- all of my confidence started melting.

"What are people gonna say? "
"These other girls are so much prettier than me."

I had so many body issues back then and now I look back and think, damn girl-you were way more beautiful than you knew"

I shared this old picture of me and this story for 1 reason, to tell you That you are way more beautiful than you even know! 
Right now, you don't have to lose 10 lbs to be pretty. You are not Pretty for a fat girl. You are not too skinny, your boobs are big enough. Your smile is perfect and YOU ARE PERFECT!

If you have goals to reach a certain weight or " fix" anything to improve something you are unhappy with, I can definitely understand that. Since this Photograph I have had porcelain veneers and a breast augmentation. So if you have goals, then I say keep striving to reach them. However don't feel like you're less than if you are still a work in progress. 
Be Confident and know you are Amazing! 





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